Navigate to your best life
I often overbook myself, take on too much, and resist pulling out of any commitments when I realize I am past my limits.
My German mom and workaholic dad taught me to just push on through the overwhelm. I am grateful for the fortitude they instilled in me, but I am trying to learn a new way.
I want to make different choices when I get this drained and fried out.
So I got up, and put away the tools and work gear. I tidied up the mess from the partially done big task. I accepted that it would reside in limbo.
This felt like a big shift for me. I didn’t push through. I backtracked. I paused. I prioritized my focus on one zone to manage, instead of spreading myself too thin.
I pulled cards to ask what to speak about today, and the shadowy cards of the Moon and 10 of Swords came up.
The overlapping messages of these are about the ways our limiting beliefs and inner turmoil hold us back.
For many of us, the feeling that we are trying our best and it’s just not quite making the mark is incredibly common.
So today, for just a few minutes, let’s sit and be present with what’s real in this moment.
We can talk all day about how much we hold self esteem, but only when we take actions that display self-worth does it really solidify as actual value.
It’s natural that the associated guilt coming up for me was deeply discombobulating. That’s going to happen every time I practice this type of self-care until it becomes normalized in my system.
My friend pointed out that baseball players during practice will have balls thrown at them on purpose. This helps them get less scared of getting hit by the ball.
We have to get in the line of the ball to get hit with a discomfort of choosing what we know is right for us enough times until we’re not scared of it anymore.